Sunday, August 15, 2010

2:15am

AHH!

Still haven't eaten anything besides that yogurt. I'm telling you my mouth is screaming "PICKLE...PICKLE...PICKLE!" my head is screaming even louder "FUCK IT...FUCK IT...YOUR FAT...FUCK IT!".

In the past 5 days I've had like 1000 calories, I've lost 1lb today, my brain feels like mush, My thinking isn't right, it feels like I've lost half of my brain, lack of nutrients? I'm assuming so, but its only been around 4-5 days! I use to do this before (This being restricting and fasting) and i haven't felt like this so soon before, it's probably from so much binging and purging and then a rapid change to restricting and fasting.
My vision seems...wobbly, kind of like I'm tipsy, i will just take it as a pat on the back, this way i know I'm doing a good job, and I'm motivated to keep doing what I'm doing.


I wish i could go to sleep. But that's not going to happen.
IM HUNGRY...

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